Can you see me?

    I couldn't get around it, it was bound to happen to me. There was no way around it, period. My mom has them so does my dad and now all my siblings have it except one (and that's only because she is 8, it will most likely happen to her one day). Bad eyes, that what I have and I have been like this since 2nd grade. I have been wearing glasses most of my life but thankfully I was blessed to get contacts. And oh my heavens I love them I convinced my mom to let me get them when I was 10. I wear them everyday and I think I forgot how amazing they were because the Saturday after Christmas I RAN OUT OF CONTACTS!!! So for the last two weeks I have been wearing my glasses and let me tell you that I give props the people out there who wear glasses everyday because I can't stand them and I want my contacts back. I know your probably wondering why haven't you gone and bought some more. Well its because I have to go in for an eye exam, and well I just haven't had time, from working and all the other things I do I just having had time but my goal is to get them before this weekend because I am going to this YSA Conference and I really don't want to be wearing my glasses.

  

I really give big props to those who wear glasses everyday because I don't know how much longer I can wear these dang glasses. 

a REAL job

      All throughout high school I never had a job. I feel so blessed that I never had to get one because believe me if I did I personally think that I would have not graduated. But I wasn't just handed money either, I had to do extra chores around the house and clean my dads office. None of my friends really had jobs in high school either so it wasn't a big deal. Once I graduated I started watching my cousin's little girl then I moved to another country but that's a story for another day! Anyways when I moved back I was trying to figure out what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. To this day I still have know idea what I want to do with my life, but I do have an amazing job that I love so much and I didn't have to go looking for it either, which was nice. I was on Facebook when a family friend said that her sister-in-law (who i also know) was in need of a nanny. So I commented and I the job was mine. Easy as pie! Well I have learned that it is easier said then done. Since it was my first REAL job I didn't know what to expect. It was fun at first playing with three kids every day what's more fun, right? Well, it got harder I was running out of patience, and I was always angry, but then one day it all changed. I don't know what it was but I just kept reminding myself that these are kids that are looking up to me. I have to take care of them and help them grow and learn and also that no job is easy but I have to take it day by day and take deep breaths I mean really really deep breaths.
    But I do feel so blessed to have this amazing job that teaches me to keep going even when i'm to tired and to stay calm when all the kids are crying.

Auden(4), Henry(1), Margret(3)

* put the couch on the side of the road so someone would take it and someone did!!!

*one of our many adventures at the park

* they love to wrestle with each other its so cute until one of them gets mad

But look at these cute kids who wouldn't love spending everyday with them. Everyday I spend with them I learn so much and all the hard days are nothing compared to the good days. When they run up to you and yell Miss Kylie!!!! At the top of their lungs or when it takes me 10 mins to leave because they were having so much fun and the don't want me to leave. I love the way they see the world, it has made me look at the world from a whole new perspective, it just makes life look so much better. Seeing things as kids do. They fly so much higher then the rest of the world. I love it!!!

What to say???

       What scares me to most in my life is to actually say what I want. Like in class when the teacher asked a question I usually have an answer but I never raise my hand. Why? I am constantly asking myself that. Even in a group of friends I never say what I really want too. Its been bothering me for a while and with the new year here and all, I set a personal goal to be more COURAGEOUS. I am so scared to speak up because I don't want to say something wrong or to have someone not agree with what I have to say, but how? I can't just start speaking my mind. I have to start somewhere, and the thought can into my mind what if I start blogging about anything and everything. Hardly anyone will see it but it will be out there for the world to see and it will be things that I want to say. Perfect, right? The answer is Yes!!! I don't have set topic or a special reason for this blog but only to say what I want and to write what I want and to be brave and to fly free. To not be held down. I'm only 19 years old and i'm lost in this world, trying to find my way. And I hope with baby steps like this that I can be the person that I am meant to be and say what I want. I'm ready to fly world, so watch out. Kylie is here and nothing can stop me now!!!